Slowing down.. Ha

I am struggling to slow myself down. I found myself today with a hour of spare time. I didn't want to waste it at the computer (aka time sucker).. What could I do for me in my house? It wasn't going to be the laundry or the vacuuming. I struggled to find an activity. Anxiety was rising in me, and a realization that I have no hobbies other than tasks. Wow, I had just discovered something about myself. I have 10 books that are unread on my beside table, but none of them were calling. Books are one of my Costco addictions, especially in the self help category. I am not sure it is because they are so cheap or it just looks cool to have them at the check out. So I went to my personal list of a 100 things I want to do or learn. Scanned passed snowboarding, tennis, making bread, expiry date items, and finally decided on meditation. This is the perfect activity for slowing down. I know this is a practice, one that requires stillness and a clear mind. These are two things that rarely happen. I didn't make an hour.. only 10 min. Then I hit the time sucker... There is always something on Ebay, so I bought a book on how to mediate. I will just add it to the pile stacked beside my bed for the next time I find myself with a hour.