Busy Busy

Tonight was a busy night as usual, however I generally have more sleep. As we were driving in rush hour traffic coming home for the airport, my whining began. I shared all that needed to happen in a very short amount of time. Of course my girlfriend who was listening to this display of self pity made a few suggestions. The first, ask for help. What me? Ask for help? I prefer to be the martyr, thank you! Next. Her second suggestion was to stay home and not get to all of my commitments. That seems easy enough, but what do I do with all the guilt for not following through with what I had promised? When I feel guilty I know I am falling short of my own expectations. My expectations of myself are always higher than those of others. I would forgive someone else if they just couldn't do it all. So why won't I cut myself some slack? So here is my plan. I will just be aware in the future of what I take on. And maybe, one night say I can't do it. Baby steps, everyday reclaiming a small amount of time!