RIP Country Club Girl

Tonight was the start of the social season at the golf course and I didn't get to go Losing a country club membership is like getting kicked out of the cool kids club. It seems so shallow when I write it down, as my enlightened self says " come on Janet, there are starving children in this world!" Can't I be un-elightened just for one night? I have lots of fantastic memories of hacking up green grass, laughing with my friends, and enjoying a well deserved libation on the patio. I knew this day was coming and I had talked myself into acceptance. Or, so I thought. Then it happened... I drove passed the gates as all my friends cars were pulling in. I was out, it just seemed so unfair. When I am upset I go to yoga, it seems to ground me and allow me to find a different perspective. When the brain finally shut off and my thoughts began to come clearer it all made sense. My life has changed, lots of really great things and somethings, not so great. I forgave myself for being shallow. Every once in a while I get to be sad about losing something material. It was nice being a country club snob, as a matter of fact, I enjoyed every minute of it.. Tomorrow, I will be the change I want to see in the world as Ghandi said. Today... I am Mourning the death of Country Club girl... May she rest in peace, with a cold glass of Pinot Grigio.