one hour

I haven't been doing my personal work and what I mean by that is I haven't been taking care of myself.   It happens, life is busy.  I rarely put myself as a priority in my own world.  Which is just crazy,   so many people depend on me being at my best.  Children have been known to hide during this period of insanity.   Taking care of myself is remembering what I want to do, and doing it.   Last week, I got caught up in my "to busy" story and now I am suffering the consequences.  I am full of anxiety and feeling pressure for no reason.      All of a sudden life seems to have taken over my life.  I started back on the program  and already I have seen a huge change in my attitude.  And what did it take?  One hour a day and some laughter.      I am so worth one hour of my own day.     

“Today was good. Today was fun. Tomorrow is another one.” 

― Dr. Seuss

I am a inventor!

I was told today that I have to start blogging again for the website.   I hate being told what to do.  I instantly go to the little girl inside of me that stomps her feet and screams NO!    Blogging so last year for me and I am on to other things.  I have a team now and certainly someone wants to put thoughts down in a paragraph?   Apparently not.  They all picked jobs and this one was still on the list.   Blogging was easy last year, but now I seem to have writers block.  Am I not the same person?  Well, I can honestly say I am not (even if my grammar and spelling are still terrible).    Last year I wanted to be a writer, and this year I am a inventor.  Maybe next year I will be a dancer.   I get to change my mind!

To Lollygag is a choice

To lollygag is to spend time aimlessly; in idle.  Well today,  I got to do this with daughter Kate at the mall.    It dawned on us as we were lollygagging back to the car that we really didn’t have anything else to do today.  What a gift on a Sunday.  I have to admit that did try early in the morning to organize a soccer game and  a very wise soccer mom simply asked me “why are you adding?”   Good question, but is being idle different than being lazy?  There is this current of fear in my body that never wants to waste a day.   Therefore,  laying on the couch is not something that I enjoy.   And that is really what a day off is, choosing what you want to do with your time.  Idle or not.  Everyone deserves a day of choice and when they come,  enjoy it.  

Can I give you a title?

I issued another title and another box of Karma Sister business cards today.. It may sound crazy but to my new project its like a contract.  I have no capital to pay staff, no benefit package and no promise of a corner office.  All I have is a idea and a box of business cards.   Intention is a powerful thing and when you want  something,   somehow the universe  presents itself and it appears.  KS has five employees including myself and we love the possiblities.  Not what it will bring us personally but what we are creating.    The new way to do business is collaberation, inclusion and big picture.  Money can be  the root of all evil, but what if money is not the motivation?  I am not sure that Karma Sisters will ever turn a profit, but I do know 5 people who think that this adventure is one that they don’t want to miss.  To me that’s money in the bank.

Bucket list

As I was skiing today breathing in the fragrant mountain air, I began thinking about my bucket list.  It was such a popular conversation a few years back when the movie came out.   Emails were flying around with everyone’s top 50.   What happened to the lists? Is everyone checking items off?   I am not,  as it became another “to do” list that I have to manage.   I already have 4 uncompleted baby books haunting me, no thanks to more guilt.   As if I have time to go sit with the Dali Lama on a mountain for 4 weeks, life is busy.    Adventures comes to me all the time, so maybe I  just need to say “yes” more.    I shyly asked my  two oldest daughters to join me at a yoga/ski retreat this weekend.     Yogis love to chant,  dance wildly and eat tofu.  I was reluctant to show them how I act when they are not with me.  I often wonder if they are going to have me committed for not acting like a normal mother.   When they agreed,  I  prepared myself for the teasing and laughter, which I got loads of.  We shared many giggles and made some crazy memories which are two of my favorite things and this adventure was never on my bucket list.   I love my life with my girls and my life with one less list. 

Self Doubt

Self Doubt seems to be a plague with woman.  I watched Kevin Costner’s tribute to Whitney Houston this weekend and he reflected on how she was consumed with doubt about her abilities during the filming of “the bodyguard”.  Whitney Houston had a voice of an angel and she died not owning that.   I know from personal experience, working on my KS project, I am waiting for someone to tell me that I don’t know what I am doing (which is very true,  but still cautiously moving ahead).   What’s with all the self doubt?  Think about when we receive a compliment.  Usually with a deflection to someone else’s efforts or we argue the fact.    We were raised not to toot our own horns.  Are we not realizing who we are or who we can be because we are trying to stay quiet  in an effort not to hurt someone else's feelings? There is a difference between bragging and owning our accomplishments.   Achievements builds the evidence to damper that mean girl in our heads who remind us that we are not good enough.    As I searched the internet looking for a great quote for this blog most of them were from men.  Clearly this is not a gender specific problem, but it is Karma SISTERS.   So in the words of a great woman Eleanor Roosevelt   “You must do the thing you think you cannot do”

Happy Valentines Day

Happy Valentines Day. I noticed that there are two Valentine camps. One group that refuses to participate in a “made up” consumer driven day, and everyone else that loves those heart shaped jube jubes and muppet valentines cards. Nothing says love like a note from Ms. Piggy. Sure there are 363 other days in the year that you could give flowers or chocolates, but how many days does it happen? It is an easy to get right. Its the same day every year and even the gas stations were selling flowers today. It is the smallest things that count, and one big day over looked that can hurt the most. If you forgot someone you love today, then you have the next 363 days to make it up. Karma Sister rule: Appreciate the ones you love everyday and a little bit extra today